I always mess things up. That’s just what I do. It’s inevitable. I always upset her. I can’t even comfort her. I’m so bad at this. Trying to be her vent and outlet but that doesn’t even seem to be working. I can’t do anything right huh. Screwed up my app and I can’t even help her. I’m so sad..
ups-
basketball and epicenter fun
movies w/ Gracee Tiffany Brian Philip Andrew & George
downs-
hw. hw. hw.
tests I thought would be easy turned out I made dumb mistakes on.
tired/sleepy
dnw school.
What makes me sad you may ask? It’s not the fact bad things happen everyday. It’s not that life is difficult. But the one thing that makes me lose faith in all of humanity, is the indecency some people have to respect other people’s beliefs, choices, and opinions. It’s called an opinion for a reason. People don’t have to believe in the same thing. In fact they shouldn’t otherwise life would be really boring. I can go on the internet and easily broadcast my beliefs or choices and all I would receive things from hatemail to supporters. Now, don’t get me wrong I’m fine with constructive criticism or differing beliefs but people need to stop sipping the haterade. I’m tired of all the crap people do just to have their own kicks or they’re too blind to at least acknowledge other people. I suppose it’s more of a combination of rage and sadness.
Went through my days bored.
Classes same as usual.
Tests speeches and the sort
average 5 then 7 but late night ><
-thud.. thud…. my heart skipped a beat. Even just thinking about public speaking gets my heart racing. I can’t stand all the attention on me. I feel exposed up there. The grand stand. The feeling that I can’t avoid the impending mistakes and stumbling. The fear that I’ll never be able to triumph over this kryptonite.
Today marks the one month anniversary of me + her.
Woke up today and stopped being lazy. Rode my bike to school!
Walked Gracee to band and then played a boring song. Ferntheil got on our cases and playing music wasn’t fun today.
Pre-Calc understand application problems better
ap lang - essay prompt and junk ><
spanish- got a project did mainly classwork wrote a note
lunch- boring for the most part. Read Gracee’s journal! ^_^
p.e- 2 ball soccer ‘nough said.
ap chem- forgot to turn in my hw so half off negating my test.
Walked Gracee home and just chillaxed :D
forgot my bike and walked back to the hs to pick it up.
hw hw hw
showerrrrr
then hw!
6/10!
Impatience. The feeling I get when I think about her. Being able to see her just makes me happy. The quicker I can see her the better. The yearning to see that one special person that makes you feel complete. Maybe I’m being sappy. sappy sappy sappy. But to be honest with myself that is really how I feel when I want to see her. Impatient.
Today I woke up and ate these chinese bread sticks and drank some hot chocolate. Was rushed to bring everything uniform shako and instrument.
found Gracee and walked her to class.
Band was boring. Played the slow movement that is boring besides the soloists.
Pre calc kicked my butt again. HATE word problems/applications
LAng speeches and I wrote a note
Spanish did a bunch of random activities did well on my test
lunch was spent doing my ap chem hw and christian club worship
p.e backus made us play 2 ball soccer again so it was boring mainly
chem i think i did OKAY on my test
afterschool walked Gracee home and chilled ^_^
home did spanish, ate and showered.
okay day 6/10 (scale subject to change :D)
THIS ^
can i marry him?
I am not a guy. But omg.
I’m a guy just like this guy. And I’m proud of that.
“I remembered that females get heartbroken real easily, fragile, weak, works a lot at home, get pregnant, get period pains and lots more problems than most men. And that’s the reason why boys exist. We exist to protect you girls out there, and its a shame that its hard to find a good guy nowadays.”
:’)
(via melsbowtique)
